Today!!!

​Roll back to the summer
of 2015
Before the nightmares started  
and life was still a dream
Just a ball of sunshine
out there on the New York scene
She was lookin for herself
or something close it seemed

I believe the month was June
the air was hot and sticky
In that beautiful white suit
She said, "you better birthday kiss me!!!
Cuz if you don't tonight,
then 1 day you're gonna miss me
And not havin me around
can be a little risky
Tryin to replace me
is like wine after whiskey"
She was dancin to her own drum
yea those feet were gettin busy
Always flirtin with a good time
she was sure to make ya dizzy

Cuz that little bombshell sparkled
She had magic inside
And some days I can still see her
if I just close my eyes
Because that light was shining through her like the stars up in the sky
She got brighter in the darkness
she got stronger with the tide

Cancer tried to take her peace
you know the devil likes to lie
That shit was beauty & the beast
they even cut her open wide
All the chemo made her weak
IVs drippin by her side
Many nights she lost sleep
on her pillow as she cried
From the passengers seat
she learned a lot along the ride
In the middle of the brokenness
she watched 2 worlds collide:

A world full of pain and
A world full of love
A world with compassion and
A world full of drugs
A world full of friendship
from those you can't imagine
A world where there were sisters
Holdin hands in God's mansion
A world full of hospitals
A world full of church
A world full of hugs
to take away the hurt
A world still worth livin in
or at least one where she'd try
Because it's never too late
to start working on your stride

So she was runnin again
her feet were pickin up the pace
Yea she was fightin for gold
in her own Olympic race
She said every day's a gift
so be careful not to waste
Because my life was almost taken
But I could not be erased!!!

Every ounce of beauty
quickly got replaced
With baggy shirts and drains
hangin down to my waist
The day I shaved my head
tears were streamin down my face
I swear I could've filled an Ocean
as I cried out salty waves
I swam through every bottle
Tryna drown out that bad taste
I was lookin for myself
but I could not find a trace
Wearin scars like it was fashion
all wrapped up in gauzy lace
I was bleedin on the inside
with a smile on my face

But I straightened out my crown
and got back in the race
And I'm here today to tell you
we're full of miracles and grace
If there's one thing I could share though
I would tell you not to wait
Do it NOW and not tomorrow
cuz we only have TODAY!!!

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