 Roll back to the summer
of 2015 Before the nightmares started and life was still a dream Just a ball of sunshine out there on the New York scene She was lookin for herself or something close it seemed I believe the month was June the air was hot and sticky In that beautiful white suit She said, "you better birthday kiss me!!! Cuz if you don't tonight, then 1 day you're gonna miss me And not havin me around can be a little risky Tryin to replace me is like wine after whiskey" She was dancin to her own drum yea those feet were gettin busy Always flirtin with a good time she was sure to make ya dizzy Cuz that little bombshell sparkled She had magic inside And some days I can still see her if I just close my eyes Because that light was shining through her like the stars up in the sky She got brighter in the darkness she got stronger with the tide Cancer tried to take her peace you know the devil likes to lie That shit was beauty & the beast they even cut her open wide All the chemo made her weak IVs drippin by her side Many nights she lost sleep on her pillow as she cried From the passengers seat she learned a lot along the ride In the middle of the brokenness she watched 2 worlds collide: A world full of pain and A world full of love A world with compassion and A world full of drugs A world full of friendship from those you can't imagine A world where there were sisters Holdin hands in God's mansion A world full of hospitals A world full of church A world full of hugs to take away the hurt A world still worth livin in or at least one where she'd try Because it's never too late to start working on your stride So she was runnin again her feet were pickin up the pace Yea she was fightin for gold in her own Olympic race She said every day's a gift so be careful not to waste Because my life was almost taken But I could not be erased!!! Every ounce of beauty quickly got replaced With baggy shirts and drains hangin down to my waist The day I shaved my head tears were streamin down my face I swear I could've filled an Ocean as I cried out salty waves I swam through every bottle Tryna drown out that bad taste I was lookin for myself but I could not find a trace Wearin scars like it was fashion all wrapped up in gauzy lace I was bleedin on the inside with a smile on my face But I straightened out my crown and got back in the race And I'm here today to tell you we're full of miracles and grace If there's one thing I could share though I would tell you not to wait Do it NOW and not tomorrow cuz we only have TODAY!!!
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 And suddenly it hits me while I'm lying on my back How precious our time is and how quickly it can pass Today's 11 months since my body was hacked By the nastiest disease this thing called cancer is whack!!! Brought me to my knees and stole my money stacks Sometimes I can not breathe from the countless flashbacks Not even my enemy would I wish this attack Robbed my nights of sleep and had me slippin through the cracks My faith it gives me wings to fly towards a comeback So to the fighters keep your head up Turns out I beat it, raise a flag!!! #LivStrong #cancersux #bca #staypositive #countyourblessings #collectmomentsnotthings 🙏💖💪🏼😰 👑 I am NOT my Hair I'm not what I wear Clothed in scars and smiles Come close if you dare Please handle with care because this package is so rare When they see her walking they all stop and stare A spirit you should fear because I am still here got me screaming out Liv Strong like the anthem of the year!!! Listen to the cheer I feel my time is near Shout out to the good souls who helped wipe every tear Signed yours truly, From a heart that's so sincere #latepost #cancersucks #survivor #poet #LivStrong  This morning I awoke with water in my eyes Full of gratitude the war is over inside Yesterday’s surgery made me realize That having a healthy body is the ultimate prize Still wrapped in bandages but the cancer has died And I’ve never been more sure that LOVE is ALIVE They could fill an ocean with the tears that I’ve cried But I would learn to swim after a headfirst dive Never knew my own strength or how hard I could fight I made it through the storm with a faith burning bright Lost some people on the way who couldn’t bear the sight And yet some surprised me Who came back day and night Nothing is too broken to find its way back to the light Thank you to the souls who’ve touched my heart and touched my life   Dear World,
It's been a while… I have not spoken lately because I didn't want to hear the echo of my own words. As someone who prides themselves on being optimistic, it is strange to hear defeat knock. I would be lying though if I did not acknowledge the pain that recently snuck in through the side windows and back door. I suppose pain is 1 of the greatest motivating forces in the universe. It pushes us to points we did not know existed and reminds us of how strong or weak we ultimately choose to be. Tonight I write you from my most honest and vulnerable state. Behind the blonde curls, big smile, and bubbly personality is just a girl who needs a long hug and good cry. I watched my body and world crumble before my eyes in less than 9 months. In fact, I managed to get through 3 surgeries (as of Wednesday), 4 rounds of chemo, and having my head shaved on the Nasdaq Billboard in Times Square. By the way, that was in between graduating college, preparing dance shows for Lincoln Center and ABC news broadcasters, recording 2 documentaries, and finishing a poetry book. Not to mention experiencing some of the most awkward dating experiences of my life!!! You think when you’re “CANCER FREE” it’s over but actually it’s just the beginning. It is like re-learning everything for the first time again. There is no fear because once you realize you didn’t die, you’re actually able to live. Each day I face a new set of challenges... mostly facing myself. What I can tell you though is this: I like a life without rules I like people who are real I like speaking of my dreams I like music that heals I like food that is warm I like dancing in the rain I like wine that is chilled I like forgetting my pain I like the laugh of a child I like learning what I don't know I like my heart young I like my old soul I like that I still love I like who I could be I like who I’m becoming I like that I am free #thinkingoutloud #poet #fcancer #LivStrong Today we celebrate the gift of LOVE So here's to the ones who help build us up For life is hard and the road is long Thankful to the souls who help us carry on The smallest acts of kindness like a smile or a hug Can help regrow a nation with a single touch It's not what we can get when trying to reach new height But the kindness that we give that radiates our light For when I leave this Earth I hope that it's a better place And someone breathed easier in my presence one day They say protect your heart so your spirit doesn't fall But I never lost anything By watering the flowers on the wall!!! #poet #writer #artist #flowerchild #lovealwayswins  Tired of wigs Tired of hats Tired of silk scarves tied to the back Tired of tired my body’s been hacked Tired of insurance and the sympathy they lack Ready for vaca In my mind I am packed Done with infusions now find your way back What’s the “new normal”? Please tell me the facts Cuz I’m swimming through the deep end and this diamond is cracked I’ll smile through the pain as they all say relax But shoutout to the brave souls who take it in racks Ya’ll are my heroes I mean it to the max Let's do this walk together we will make our own map  Thankful to say I made it out ok Thankful for all of the people who pray Thankful to wake up Each & every day Thankful for Angels Who bless my pathway When I fall down I get back up and say Not today cancer Won't block all my rays Cuz I am a sunshine Burning and bright Thankful today and thankful for life #stripped #realmoment #emergencyroom #chemosucks #kickingbreastcancersbutt #LivStrong  Humbled and grateful for the messages I've received. Like water for the body you all help me breathe. Make my load a little lighter and my smile return again. I may not always respond but thank you my dear friends 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️  Good night Good night Turn out the light But oh wait 1st Let's spark it right My mind will fight Just not tonight The body's weak So careful life I write, I write to get it RIGHT I think I’m on to higher Heights Maybe eyes will take a flight to Cherry Blossom Dreams in sight I’d fly away like I’m a kite Before I lay I pray with might Because the day of CHEMO bites It’s #3 of 4 So I… Will make it through #LivStrong Aight!!!  |
AuthorOlivia has been writing poetry since the young age of 13. It was always a private passion of hers. However, after surviving cancer she decided to start sharing her work. It is important for her to connect with others going through a similar journey and hopefully provide some understanding and inspiration. #LivStrong Archives
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